Chance
Blog in the life of him.....
Posted by knitsu-evosapien on 5/29/2008 11:30:00 PM
Happy Belated 6 months,
well I guess this is the last day on this blog, I started this blog to express my feelings, so my gf could see it, other then expressing them in person, and well now were split,
6 months pretty much to the date
am i sad? ofcourse!
do i want her back! ofcourse
its 3 in the morning, and she just left my house, I coudlnt goto sleep woke up and came on my computer and started chatting away
now comes the most hardest part, getting rid of every single thing we have on facebook, abbe, pictures, videos, pictures, hugs, kisses, dedications, notes, all the happy things, that will soon make me sad, deep and down in despair.
A wise person once told me, whatever hurts you, will teach you, to learn from your mistakes, and my mistakes in this relationship..... comitting to a girl who was not redy for a realtionship and still is not ready for a relationship, or atleast not wanting me
she has her plus's, she helped me quit smoking, smoing buds, buying buds, paying off my debt, and motivating me to me for physically active and also to be more open to the person I am with
though I do not think I was open enough, I saw all this happening earlier in the week, and really their was nothing I could do to stop it
So here I am now in the living room, looking up to the heaven's for her to come back and open that door, to run up to me and give me a hug and to say im sorry, and to forget that this happened today, but I know this is not going to happen,
I guess she was not the one for me
Now starts the 5 stages of breaking up, after a somewhat serious relationship of 6 months, DENIAL, i;ll wake up tomorrow thinking things are still fuct up, but really were split, how long will it take, to get past this stage, only 4 more left after that
she's off to some kegger, probably have some hot guys pick her up, boost her motivation and have some fun but worst thing is of all, while i sit here a block away, soaking up like an emo fuck, crying, and wishing life was not like this...
what to do, ohh what to do
I gotta goto work tomorrow and deal with fucking customers bitching and complaing, I really hope my ID is locked out, intentionally, i dont care about anything right now, ofcourse I want to live, but i need to move on and get over her, ofcourse if that is what she wants to do to me
well time to end this hear, im sure ill have a bunch of rants tomorrow